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I always thought your stuff was full of soul myself. They just seemed to speak volumes and held so much emotion. But I know it's a different street when you look at something as an artist and not a viewer and all you can see are the flaws, so I won't harp on that. That and art is fluid and with every new piece you do you either see more improvement or more flaws and blah blah blah artistic ramblings go here.
Life is about experience really. The only way you can fail at life is to give up. And Am? You have far from failed. In fact you are looking pretty damn successful from where I'm sitting. ;u; Just right now you are going through some stupid shit (and trust me, you aren't missing out on not getting into the art course in my opinion). I know teachers I had who didn't know what they wanted to do until they were 30, and even then they were unsure. So don't feel upset or down man, and if you need someone to talk to just remember I'm always here for you. C:
And remember - you are damn beautiful Am. You are witty and always have snappy comebacks, and are never dry of an idea, be it insightful, hilarious, or creative. You are worth so much more than what you think people view you as. Never forget that.
God I hope that doesn't sound stupid or cheesy or trivialising anything BLAH ;A; Just know that I'm here and you are fantastic in everyway okay?I believe at hard times like this it's really important to find at least one person (a friend or a family member) who will listen to you and to whom you may vent as much and as freely as possible.
I know how you feel, and it ain't easy going through a tough period, but you're strong, you'll make it! I believe you will. Pay no attention to those people, they're idiots for making you feel bad about being unsure of what to do after graduation. Making such a decision is never easy! You may be interested in some other jobs besides the ones that include art. One can easily change their mind, I know a lot of kids from my school (high school for design) who, one might say, WASTED four years studying this and then all of a sudden decided that they want to do something else. I don't think it's wasted, not at all.
We spend all of our lives learning. So you see, it's okay to change your mind, and when you don't want to change your mind, it's okay to have a hard time coping when everything seems gloomy from time to time. There will always be hard times, but there will always be cheerful, joyful times full of bliss, too. It's simply inevitable.
And urgh, I know exactly what you mean by "weird looks". Just ignore them. I hate it when people look at me weirdly too.
All in all, if it'll make you feel better, draw as much as you can!
I, for one, really like this one! It speaks to me...it's like you were so angry...you wanted to project the absolute opposite onto your piece, making her look incredibly calm and tranquil. But, I do sense tension and frustration with all the little jagged, hurried lines on top of her head. Almost as if it has consumed her so much from within, that now it's starting to show on the surface too.
Don't ever, ever quit drawing! I'm always excited to see what you will come up with next!
But yeah, thank you for your kind and wise words, Purple. You've made an excellent point, that we're all learning one way or another and that it's a constant experience throughout our lives. And yes, I believe I do have the strength to cope - I just needed to finally accept my feelings instead of pretending that everything was hunky dory all the time. I think that was what I was struggling with the most.
-takes another look-
No problem and you're absolutely welcome, Amateur. Any time. I'm here for you, just whistle (or give me a hug?
Yes, you've just given some pretty good advice yourself! Whenever you feel down, one of the things you can do is to rationalize the situation, meaning that it's completely normal for our lives to get difficult and hard at times. Thinking that it's just a passing phase (as it normally is, especially for naturally happy and strong people, and i highly believe you're one of them) can also help you calm down since then you know it's all gonna be alright and normal again at some point. Also don't be afraid to open up and talk about your feelings to someone you trust! It's a great way to deal with stress.
There is no time limit to success, you can become whatever you want whenever you want. I went to art school, am I doing that now, no, am I trying to get back to it, yes, will it take me a long time, yes, am I ok with that, no, but will I keep working, yes. It will take you a while to figure out what you want to do, and that's ok, the people you know who know what they want to do will change that in 5 year (ok maybe not every one of them some people really do figure it out young) but there's nothing wrong with being indecisive. It actually gives you the opportunity to become good at a lot of things instead of just one.
At work, talk to your boss, if you're working your ass off and getting no recognition, you have to stand up for yourself, even if they can't afford to give you a raise let them know how unappreciated you feel and they should start treating you with more respect. I've recently gotten into HR (yes I'm 29 and am still figuring my shit out, but I can draw, do massage, customer support and a whole lot of other things), and feeling that you're being treated with respect and are appreciated is a huge thing in the workplace, it's one of the biggest reasons for people quitting, so if your boss won't listen go to an HR person, they need to know that your boss doesn't listen and how you feel to make the company a better place to work in.
Please message me if you need to talk, your art is fantastic no matter what the art schools say (I've had teachers tell me I would never sell a piece and art wasn't my thing, I proved them wrong on both counts). This piece especially is fabulous, I think it does really reflect how you feel. Ultimately as long as your art can act as an outlet, and/or make you happy, keep doing it, screw everyone else, they aren't you.
You see, the problem isn't so much that it'll take me a long time to finish my studies (I think that's pretty much a given when you're studying for a degree), but that my parents (particularly my father) can't seem to let up that I will need time to finish the degree. It was very upsetting for them to hear that I couldn't graduate this year (it has nothing to do with me failing or anything like that, by the way - the reason is far more arbitrary and stupid than I could ever imagine and I don't wish to bring it up) and even now I'm being berated by them about it. They wanted me to move on straight to the working world once I was finished, which is ideal for everyone I guess, but the problem is my undergrad degree is virtually useless. Even if I did graduate early, I'd still need another 3 or 4 years before I could land a regular job in the field. It's just..it's complicated. What's even more annoying is the fact that I don't feel the field is right for me. I'm doing okay in it but compared to others I'm terrible. And I can't see myself in that career - there's nothing appealing about it now that I know what it's about. In fact, it was part of the reason I was feeling so down in the first place. Ah.... don't ask, I don't really want to open -that- particular can of worms.
I really want to do art instead of this other degree. In fact, I actually got accepted into an art school a couple of days ago. It may not have been my first choice but it's still decent. My parents are still unhappy about the decision but the point is it's -my- decision, not theirs. I'm in control. This was the first time in a long time I had any sense of control with what goes on in my life and it feels fucking good, I must say. I've got it all planned out, too. So there's not much to worry about, there.
With worrrkk, that's another complicated issue. You see, I'm a sub. Subs don't get much say at workplaces, and in fact, the full-time staff seem to dislike us more than anything else although I'm not even sure why (it probably has to do with the fact that I'm a newcomer, and if Psychology's taught me anything, groups tend to distrust newcomers). I work at different centres, so I'm never assigned to one sole workplace, and with each one there's different rules to learn, different people to deal with, different procedures, hell, even different payments. So, every time I work, I'd need to learn all these things the minute I walk in there, and the full-time staff almost never seem to grasp this and expect me to know pretty much everything the moment I step into the premises. They get annoyed when I start asking them questions about procedures and half the time, aren't even willing to teach me. When I screw it up, even a little bit, I get berated like crazy. Oh man, they just LOVE that, zeroing in on every mistake I make and ignoring everything I do right. Now, imagine dealing with this over and over and over again every time you work. What would that do to your self-esteem? I would say it wouldn't be doing it much good. It doesn't help that the subs get the dirtiest work on the premises. The full-time staff WILL without a doubt take full advantage of the situation and will have you crawling around the place cleaning up after them. This job isn't easy. There's no one to talk to about these things. Even if I do talk to the manager or something, they will not care. In fact, they'd just find another sub that would do the work without complaint. So you see, it's a lot more complicated than just going up to your superior and asking them for some respect and a pay-rise. The problem about this job, though, is that I love it. Taking all the bullshit aside, it is a decent-paying job, and I enjoy working with kids, so I don't really want to leave. I'd be willing to endure the abuse just so I could stay on. It's just a little taxing after a while, you know?
I could go on and on and on about the crap I'm dealing with, but honestly, I still have it better than a lot of other people so I shouldn't be complaining. It's hard to make yourself feel better based on that fact, though, especially when it feels like everything is working against you.....which, of course isn't true at all. Anyway, thanks for you advice and for caring in the first place.
SO *virtual hug* you'll get through this.
Nah seriously I think it will also be beneficial for you in the long run. This is you (in angry form anyways).
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